okay, so i've neglected this thing for far too long.
most of the summer was pretty much miserable for me, but i got through it and i'm better than ever now.
a lot has gone on, but i am so much stronger.
i'm so thankful for my friends, family and particularly one dope boy named Billy.
Billy is a godsend. for real. we've been dating for only a short time, but he is honestly the most amazing boy i've ever met. i'm astounded at how hard i sweat him.
we've got so much in common, like crazy shit, i still can't believe it.
and he's super talented. he sings, rhymes, writes, plays guitar and makes beats.
i'm truly dumbfounded at how lucky i am.... for everything.
i start school oct. 14th, i cannot wait.
i'm finally getting my esthetics license, so i can REALLY do something with my makeup skills now.
here is my boo and some lyrics he wrote about me.
"20 Minutes" by endoLbeoL:
I woke up with a palm pressed against tight smooth flesh,
it's as if the world burned and there were two left,
time tested respected convention meets new-fresh,
my closed eyes clueless, shallow until opened to true depth,
to keep your spooned head upon shoulder, I tried to move less,
and hold mine in so I could feel you take in each new breath,
thought back to you dancing to juke tunes in jeans and loose dress,
and your name being the one the punk cover band knew best,
making love with movements, had me captivated like 'ooooooooo, yes',
every step a stride towards fighting life's crude twists that misconstrue sense,
but I stay grounded, make rounds at sifting through what you said in used texts,
if given: live alone or leave loved? I would choose death,
feeling real and knew this, since I saw last week's Sunday begin,
your radiance, leaving previous sunbeam's gleams seeming extraneous,
right from jump to get in, for twenty minutes- too much to mention,
while you slept, I counted each of one thousand two hundred seconds…
